5/14/09
♥ lost and confuse...
been quite lost and confuse abt sch work lately... don know wat the matter wif me... lose focus i guess... i couldn't understand wat the lecturers are toking nor their terms... too chim...
1st module, fluid machanics was the worse... the lecture notes were veri much blank... need 2 copy a lot of notes down ourself... right or correct will b up 2 our own fate if we copy the notes down correctly... his lectures were beating around the bush and doesn't get straight to the point... so nt sure which are the correct examples n which are the false ones...
2nd module, chemical reaction engineering... the lecturer go through things too fast... couldn get wats she is toking... her lectures are too brief... need to read up alot on her lectures...
3rd module... engineering maths... the lecturer is an old lady who speaks mostly to herself... couldn hear her from behind... told her b4 tt her voice is soft n slow but next lectures went back to square 1...
felt the urge to quit sch like luther... told jeff abt it... he kind of tell me some facts abt life bah... working cannot compare to study... simply becos they are 2 different matters... he told me study is still consider fun... true... n when working, there will nt be much guiding n helping from superior...
speaking of luther... kind of evny his carefree attitube... met him at the sch library a few days back when he came to pick up his gf... he told me he quited sch... ask sj abt it... sj said he quit 6 months back... reason unknown... sometime hope i could juz do tt... but i don tink i can... cos i can't afford 2... life in poly wasn't really as simple as i tink... timetable tis sem was screwed... 8~5 each day... after tt will b demanding practicals and tutorials that should b done at home... couldn really understand lectures in class, tutorials make matter worse... stared at the question, my mind went blank... everything looked strange to me... felt out of place at that moment... m i in the rite place looking at tis?
feeling veri fed up now... relationship problems are screwed up mostly... taking up me alot of my time n energy on tis stuff... some times i don really understand my frens... i nt sure is it me being heartless or they being too sensitive... i don really like ppl getting emo cos it damped my mood as well but ppl don fail to do so... simple things made complicated...
i m so wore out now...
1st module, fluid machanics was the worse... the lecture notes were veri much blank... need 2 copy a lot of notes down ourself... right or correct will b up 2 our own fate if we copy the notes down correctly... his lectures were beating around the bush and doesn't get straight to the point... so nt sure which are the correct examples n which are the false ones...
2nd module, chemical reaction engineering... the lecturer go through things too fast... couldn get wats she is toking... her lectures are too brief... need to read up alot on her lectures...
3rd module... engineering maths... the lecturer is an old lady who speaks mostly to herself... couldn hear her from behind... told her b4 tt her voice is soft n slow but next lectures went back to square 1...
felt the urge to quit sch like luther... told jeff abt it... he kind of tell me some facts abt life bah... working cannot compare to study... simply becos they are 2 different matters... he told me study is still consider fun... true... n when working, there will nt be much guiding n helping from superior...
speaking of luther... kind of evny his carefree attitube... met him at the sch library a few days back when he came to pick up his gf... he told me he quited sch... ask sj abt it... sj said he quit 6 months back... reason unknown... sometime hope i could juz do tt... but i don tink i can... cos i can't afford 2... life in poly wasn't really as simple as i tink... timetable tis sem was screwed... 8~5 each day... after tt will b demanding practicals and tutorials that should b done at home... couldn really understand lectures in class, tutorials make matter worse... stared at the question, my mind went blank... everything looked strange to me... felt out of place at that moment... m i in the rite place looking at tis?
feeling veri fed up now... relationship problems are screwed up mostly... taking up me alot of my time n energy on tis stuff... some times i don really understand my frens... i nt sure is it me being heartless or they being too sensitive... i don really like ppl getting emo cos it damped my mood as well but ppl don fail to do so... simple things made complicated...
i m so wore out now...
11:58 PM
